I scribble my tots for reads to remind me what mattered at the point of time. Usually writing helps me. It helps my thought process gather in one place, from a jumbled together pile in my brain to a linear, succinct story on a page. In note form. Do this, remember that, be grateful for this, and so on. The problem is I can't share with you what's really on my mind. It's relationship stuff. I guess that's all I can say. I have figured out one thing, though, and I would like to share it. If you love something, let it go. Be gentle and don't hold on too tightly.